When Practicing Yoga Means Not “Doing” Yoga

Several years ago, as a very earnest and eager new yogini, I injured my right knee during a rather vigorous yoga class. Quite frankly, it3655834007_dbd6a5f804 was a class I shouldn’t even have been in, given my lack of experience in asana practice and my inability to do a lot of the postures with proper form. Unfortunately, people being in yoga classes beyond their ability and teachers keeping them safe in these classes is a real problem in the yoga community. (Which is why articles like this show up in the New York Times)

Long story short, after the injury I insisted on continuing a physical yoga practice until I literally could not go up or down stairs and could only walk with excruciating pain. Finally, I surrendered. I listened to my body, I rested my knee, which meant absolutely NO ASANA from the waist down, and slowly but surely my knee healed. It took months. Many long months.

The first of those long months I pouted. But after a few months of pouting, I got back to a real yoga practice. No asana, but Yoga just the same. Within a few weeks of a daily non-physical yoga practice, I stopped pouting. I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I stopped resenting my body and its imperfections and I started feeling compassion towards myself and especially my poor knee that had been so abused by me, its owner. And, most importantly, I felt a profound empathy for people with limited mobility and those living with chronic pain.

It was this experience with my knee injury that fueled my passion for making yoga accessible for persons of all abilities. Not only because I think that every single person can do asana to some extent, but because I know that every single person can practice Yoga whether they have an asana practice or not. Asana is just a small part of Yoga on the whole (not that you’d know it to observe how it is practiced in the West).

Throughout the years I’ve had many students approach me with questions about how they can modify their asana practice because of an injury and many times the answer is: stop. Stop doing asana for a while. Your body must rest. I can count on one hand the number of students who have accepted this answer immediately. The usual response is: “Oh no, I can’t do that”.

I do not judge this response because I know it well. I understand the reaction. And it may be that these students need to do what I did – essentially ignore their bodies to the point of debilitating pain – before they can surrender and listen to their bodies. But until we learn to do just that – surrender and listen – we are not actually practicing Yoga. We’re just exercising.

Yoga means acceptance of what is, compassion towards ourselves and others, and holding space for ourselves to heal and be whole. We cannot be healed or whole when we are hurting our bodies through an insistence on a physical practice. When we are so attached to our physical practice that we do it even when our bodies are telling us otherwise, we have allowed our practice to become yet another “thing” that keeps us from having a clear and calm mind.

A few days ago I felt a sudden and familiar twinge in my right knee. My first reaction was, “No! Not this again!”, followed by “it’s probably not that bad”. It took a few days of this (and lots more pain) for me to once again accept that what my body needs more than anything right now is rest. After many years as both a teacher and a student of Yoga, this is still very hard for me to do.

Sometimes, practicing Yoga means not “doing” Yoga, but practicing all of the things that our asana practice is supposed to teach us and reinforce about letting go, surrender, and acceptance. It means that sometimes we stop doing and we start being.

New Year, New You?

It’s that time of year when many are making resolutions for the coming year.  A good question to ask while identifying and committing to these goals for the new year: Is my goal to change a habit or adopt a new one, or is my goal to change who I am or to adopt a new personality?

Changing behaviors that no longer serve you and adopting new ones that do is a healthy part of evolution as a person. Attempting to change who you are is merely a form of non-acceptance that will lead to frustration and suffering.

So who are you?

I am not mind, intellect, ego or field of consciousness;

Neither hearing, smelling, sight, nor taste.

I am not speech, hands, or feet, nor am I the organs of reproduction or excretion.

I am not dharma, not purpose, not liberation, not desire.

I am not sin, happiness, or suffering.

I am neither the enjoyer nor the enjoyed; neither death, fear, nor social class; neither father nor mother, nor friend, nor teacher, nor student.

My nature is the bliss of pure consciousness.

Shivo’ham. I am Shiva

– Shankaracharya

We ARE the bliss of pure consciousness and that is all that we are. Why would we want to change that?

New Year, New You? How about: New Year, Same You, More Bliss.

I wish you all a very productive new year. Here’s to resolving to eliminate that which keeps us from seeing and accepting who we really are, while we adopt practices and habits that help us on our way towards the unlimited bliss that is our true nature.

2012 here we come!